Day 1-Define Your Kinky Self

The short easy answer to this is, I am the owned property of my husband, Kris.  I try really hard to be submissive to him, and seeing as how I’m the opposite of submissive in personality, that’s really hard.  We’re working on it though.   My desire is to be completely submissive and loyal to him.  Lately I’ve been going over in my mind how I really feel about being a slave, and what that really means to me.  I’m not so sure slave/property are interchangeable anymore.

I suppose I would be considered a switch, but it’s had for me to really see it that way.  I am usually sexually submissive to men, and sexually dominate to women, but I don’t switch with the same person.  I have been topped by women, but that was following Kris’ instructions.  I am 100% sadist and masochist.  I like feeling extreme sensations and giving them.  Pain, degradation, and humiliation are all part of my sexual kinks.  Of course, I don’t always want to be degraded or humiliated, sometimes it’s so much better to feel loved and respected.

We have a very keen interest, as a couple, for bondage, and study it at length.  My interest in it comes from wanting to feel helpless, and Kris just loves working with rope.  It’s a good medium for him, and helps him get into whatever role he’s chosen for himself at that time.  Sometimes he’s mean, and sometimes not so much.

I love to study anything kinky, even those kinks that I’m not all that into.  For the most part, I’ll try anything once.  The few hard limits that I keep for myself are: needle play, scat, vomit, pedophilia, necrophilia, and chopping off of limbs.  As for everything else, sure, why not?  I suppose my favorite fetishes would include: any kind of anal play, fisting (vaginal), bondage, and pain/humiliation play.

I have spent the last 2 years totally engrossed with learning anything I can about the kinky lifestyle.  There are so many things people do within the context of their own relationships.  I would have to say we are definitely a culture and influence all our own!