It’s been awhile.

I know it’s been a long ass time since I’ve written here, but I am seriously considering coming back to posting here. I miss writing, and that’s the only reason to be honest. Seeing as how me and the Man are no longer doing any lifestyle activities, and I’ve quit reviewing, I have no clue what I’ll write about, but that is entirely beside the point. I NEED TO GET IT OUT!!! So there ya go. Look for future posts.

Day #9-Kinky Music

I love dark gothic music, and there is no one better at that than Type O Negative. It breaks my heart when I hear their music now though. I just can’t believe such a beautiful man is gone. May he rest in peace.

Day #8- Oooooo…..Sexy Pics

So, here are a few pictures that I find erotic.  Please note:  All of these pictures are of me, and I do not appreciate anyone using them without permission.  Just ask.

I love this picture of me! Check out those gams!

The first bruise Kris ever gave me.

This was the first time I was punished. I had to sleep like that all night. It was hell.

These are cane marks. We had a blast that night.

Day #7- Your Favorite Toy

Now in all honesty, I really feel like this is not very fair.  I mean, I only have an entire dresser full of toys.  The cool thing is, so do most of my friends!  I’m sure you’ll all totally understand exactly how difficult this decision will be for me, and even then I’m not sure I can narrow it down to just one, so this will probably be a list.  As a matter of fact, let’s just do a top 5 list.

Ready.

Set.

Here we go.

#5 Rechargeable Magic Wand Massager 2.0– Okay so this is a really awesome toy, and even though I do not have one, it’s probably very comparable to the hitachi, only it’s rechargeable!  No cords, no batteries, and all the power you could dream of.  This is my go to toy for a real quick fix, seein as how it can, and has on occasion, gotten me off in about 15 seconds flat!

#4 Club Vibe– Now I debated with myself long and hard about whether or not I even wanted this one on the list, but it’s just too cool for me to leave out.  The Club Vibe offers 3 different modes of function (#1 manual, #2 mp3, and #3 ambient).  By far the coolest one is ambient mode, where the sounds around you make this baby shake, rattle, and roll!

#3 Thrusting Jack Rabbit– When I first started reviewing, and growing my toy collection, I literally hated every single rabbit vibe I tried, and then this guy totally changed my mind.  There’s just something about the way it fits my body.  It’s mmmmm……good!

(note:  The next two haven’t been reviewed yet, but they are just so damn awesome I couldn’t leave them off.  I’m going to leave them short and sweet, so you can read the rest when the reviews get posted.)

#2 Triple Fling Vibe–  All I can say, is this is just like the Thrusting Jack Rabbit, only better!

#1 Lucky 13- He’s thick, and he knows better than I do where my g-spot is!  This may very well be the best toy I’ve ever had!

There you have it!  Those are most awesomest toys I have.  (Please note that my favorite toys change at will.)

E-Lust #19

Photo courtesy of Emmy

Welcome to e[lust] – Your source for sexual intelligence and inspirations of lust from the smartest & sexiest bloggers! Whether you’re looking for hot steamy smut, thought-provoking opinions or expert information, you’re going to find it here. Want to be included in e[lust] #20? Start with the rules, check out the schedule and subscribe to the RSS feed for updates!

~ This Week’s Top Three Posts ~

The Rules – She squirmed in her chair as if impaled there by my finger slowly pushing in and out. “But I can tell you that on our third date, I want something a lot bigger than your finger in me.”

Consensual Nonconsent – He told me he was going to do whatever he wanted to me, and he wanted me to not give consent. He wanted to take it from me. He wanted me to say no, and the less l liked something the harder it would make him.

Love and light – So I move on, not as a submissive, but as the smart mature strong woman that I know that I am. I will credit him with changing me. Changing the way I see myself.

~ e[lust] Editress ~

Confessional: Annual Reminder – In the dark, in the car, in the parking lot of a somewhat posh store, he got a fantastic blowjob as uptight conservatives drove past us.

~ Featured Post (Lilly’s Pick) ~

What’s Been Eating Emmy – A yearly test is good for most, but if you find you are playing with a larger than usual number of people, go get retested. Put yourself and your future partners mind at ease.

See also: Pleasurists #92 and #93 for all your sex toy review needs.

All blogs that have a submission in this edition must re-post this digest from tip-to-toe on their blogs within 7 days. Re-posting the photo is optional and the use of the “read more…” tag is allowable after this point. Thank you, and enjoy!

Thoughts & Advice on Sex & Relationship

Adventures in Buttsex
Beginner Anal Positions
Clever Slut
Ever Changing
Jane Says: Take A2M Precautions
The Big Poly Secret – The Kreplit Famine
The P-Spot is the New Male Orgasm
Vaginal Cosmetic Surgery
What is Love?

Erotic Writing

“…is Hard to Do”
Bathroom Blowjobs
Dance of The Veil(Erotic Fiction Writing)
Erotica: A “Break In” – Fantasy pt1
Foreplay – An Erotic Beginning
Her Birthday
In Plain Sight…
Just a Friend
Loki At Play
Lydia and the Wrong Stockings
my turn
Mike & Jenny In The Bookstore
Need
On Fucking Jesus
Poem
School Detention
Trust Me
The Ordeal (Part Three)
The Heat of the Moment
The Closet
The Lioness
The Belt
The Brazilian
The Show
Voyeur ISO….

Sex News, Interviews, Politics & Humor

A New Day
Interview with Athena Hollow of Geek Girls Online
KSL’s 2nd Anniversary
My Evening Out
What Happened?

Kink & Fetish

A Drink and A Smoke
Begging, Pleading
Basement
Dangerous Rope
Day 1- Define Your Kinky Self
How To Find A Mistress
I’m Here, I’m Queer???
Kissing, is all
Leash
Punishment and an Ominous Chain
The Maid and the Jewels
Temple
the 2nd night with the Farmer
Total orgasmic destruction
What FetLife Has Done

Day 6-Strange Sexual Fantasies

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I know this is all supposed to be very personal and intrusive, but I simply can not bring myself to share this particular request with you.  Oh, it’s not you personally, but that’s a very deep, very dark part of me that I don’t even really share with Kris.  So, in my opinion, that’s asking a little much.  The title of this post should most definitely be: “Day 6-I’m Totally Blowing You Off!”

To say the least, I actually feel bad about it, I mean, you all take time out of your busy schedules just to read my blog, and here I am, telling you “Neener, Neener, boo, boo, I’m not telling you shit!”, seems kind of asshatish to me anyway.  So, by all means, leave comments telling me just how crappy you think I am. 

On the bright side, I promise to make up for it by posting something else today.  Now, if I could just figure out what.

Days 4 & 5- Kinkiness of the Past or Catching Up With Matt

So, I’ve been turning this around in my head for a couple of days now, and honestly had no clue where to start or what to say.  Then I somehow happened upon an old boyfriend from my high school days, and just decided to ask him.  He knew me for a very long time before we dated, and I knew he had a crush on me, but somehow the cards just never fell correctly until the very end of high school.  Looking back and discussing it with him today, I think we both realized there was definitely something more there, and we basically just blew it off.  Of course, more than 10 years later there’s not a whole lot we can do about that.  First of all, I’m very happily married to the man of my dreams, and second, well, he’s in Japan, which is way far away in case you didn’t know.

So, his response to “Hey Matt, was I kinky when we were dating?” was, “Yeah, there were definite undertones of kink, and I remember you saying dirty shit while we were fucking.” (I’m obviously paraphrasing here.)  Apparently, he caught me at the time all my kink was becoming too much for me to hold in anymore, because I met my ex husband just a few weeks after we broke up.  Believe me when I tell you, my kink definitely came out by at least age 18.  Come to find out, Mr. Matt is the little kinky slut-man himself, and it’s just funny as hell that we are both so extreme in our kinks, and never really discussed it as a couple.  Life works out funny sometimes, I guess.

To answer about my first kinky experience, well, that honor also goes to Matt!  It was also one of the most embarrassing sex moments of my entire life as well.  Matt’s mom was, well, we’ll just say, totally ok with whatever we were doing or wanted to do in the bedroom.  She was very open with me, and she let us drink and have small parties.  She was kinda cool, except that she always had a habit of knocking on the door, or worse yet, just walking right in while we were fucking!  It was usually only mildly embarrassing, but this particular night Matt had me totally tied down to the bed, and he couldn’t really get up to answer the door, and he couldn’t get me untied either so she could come in.  So, he did his best to cover me up, but it was painfully obvious she knew what was going on.  However, as many horny young people, we sure as hell didn’t let that ruin the rest of the night.

It was fun catching up with an old flame today.  We talked about life in general, what’s going on, and all the things we should have discussed when we had the chance(i.e. kink).  I think it’s always fun catching up with people from your past, especially when you can come together and talk about things you couldn’t back then, for whatever reason.  It’s funny how things could have been so different if you were never an idiot teenager.  Nostalgia Rocks!  Now, back to my real life, which is awesome.

Day 3- Discovering Kink

This one will probably be pretty short and easy to answer.  As far back as I can remember I always knew I was different.  I’m not even sure I’ve ever had a fantasy at all that wasn’t extremely violent.  Rape and gang-bangs have been in my thoughts since I became interested in sex, even though I was far too young to even be involved in vanilla sex, and the more I delve into kink culture the more violent and outrageous they get.  A lot of my fantasies will most likely stay in my head, and I rarely share them with anyone for fear of looking like a total freak.  To be honest, if they played out the way they do in my head, it would not be good for me in too many ways to name, so I really have no intentions of reenacting some of them.

I suppose the way I see it, I never really discovered kink per se, it was just always part of who I am.

Day 2- List Your Kinks

Okay, so today, I’m supposed to make a list of all my kinks, and I’m not exactly sure, but this could be a very long list.  We better get started!

• Anything to do with anal play.
• Breath play
• Bondage
• Caning
• Consensual Non-consent
• Corset Training
• Control
• D/s
• Degradation
• Fisting
• Flogging
• Gags
• Gun Play
• Hair pulling
• Hentai
• Humiliation
• Intelligence
• Internal Enslavement
• Interrogation
• Male Authority
• Mental Bondage
• Masochism
• Masturbation
• Mind Control
• Mind Fucks
• Mummification
• Obedience Training
• Pain
• Play Rape
• Predicament Bondage
• Punching
• Sadism
• Sexual Slavery
• Spanking
• Suspension Bondage
• Total Power Exchange
• Vaginal Stretching
• Violence

I know this list is no where near complete.  Some things I haven’t done yet, but will eventually.  Maybe as things pop up I’ll keep updating this list for you.

Day 1-Define Your Kinky Self

The short easy answer to this is, I am the owned property of my husband, Kris.  I try really hard to be submissive to him, and seeing as how I’m the opposite of submissive in personality, that’s really hard.  We’re working on it though.   My desire is to be completely submissive and loyal to him.  Lately I’ve been going over in my mind how I really feel about being a slave, and what that really means to me.  I’m not so sure slave/property are interchangeable anymore.

I suppose I would be considered a switch, but it’s had for me to really see it that way.  I am usually sexually submissive to men, and sexually dominate to women, but I don’t switch with the same person.  I have been topped by women, but that was following Kris’ instructions.  I am 100% sadist and masochist.  I like feeling extreme sensations and giving them.  Pain, degradation, and humiliation are all part of my sexual kinks.  Of course, I don’t always want to be degraded or humiliated, sometimes it’s so much better to feel loved and respected.

We have a very keen interest, as a couple, for bondage, and study it at length.  My interest in it comes from wanting to feel helpless, and Kris just loves working with rope.  It’s a good medium for him, and helps him get into whatever role he’s chosen for himself at that time.  Sometimes he’s mean, and sometimes not so much.

I love to study anything kinky, even those kinks that I’m not all that into.  For the most part, I’ll try anything once.  The few hard limits that I keep for myself are: needle play, scat, vomit, pedophilia, necrophilia, and chopping off of limbs.  As for everything else, sure, why not?  I suppose my favorite fetishes would include: any kind of anal play, fisting (vaginal), bondage, and pain/humiliation play.

I have spent the last 2 years totally engrossed with learning anything I can about the kinky lifestyle.  There are so many things people do within the context of their own relationships.  I would have to say we are definitely a culture and influence all our own!